falling apart
Dec. 15th, 2024 03:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waxingcrescenti haven't been doing well physically or mentally. i'm often nauseous and dizzy and it's hard to form thoughts unless it's bedtime rumination where the thoughts come fully formed to me. i think i might be dehydrated and malnourished from all the crying and time spent in bed. i'm tired and upset all the time. my head feels unclear like it's stuffed with cotton.
whenever i do anything outside of my routine i get scared. i don't know what i'm scared of. but it sets off all those physical symptoms and it's hard for me to get back on track to feeling good.
i know i need to take this as a lesson to treat my body better and be less avoidant of seeking medical help but oh my god i can barely do anything right now.... it's all so hard... even eating is so hard. blah
whenever i do anything outside of my routine i get scared. i don't know what i'm scared of. but it sets off all those physical symptoms and it's hard for me to get back on track to feeling good.
i know i need to take this as a lesson to treat my body better and be less avoidant of seeking medical help but oh my god i can barely do anything right now.... it's all so hard... even eating is so hard. blah
